ugh.
you may have noticed i have not posted in a while. this is because i have not done any thinking in a correspondingly long while, which in turn is because i have had no energy to devote to doing so in as long. the semester is over, mostly, and now i am going to do the run-down of classes postmortem thing that seems to be popular among the little chiblens these days.
15-381 Artificial Intelligence, a.k.a. "algo": taught by luis von ahn (there is no von Ahn, only vonAhnism) and manuela veloso, this fulfillment of my applications requirement felt like a sequel to 15-451 (algo); hence why i repeatedly - mostly unintentionally, too - referred to it as "i have algo homework to do this week". i, like most of the classmates in my immediate social circle, ceased going to lectures for the most part about halfway through the semester. of particular note was one time towards the end that i decided to go on a whim, and discovered to my dismay that nobody else I knew at all was there, and also the slides being presented (game theory) were exactly the same slides that I saw a year ago in 15-396 science of the web. as for the final exam, i walked out feeling i'd done about as expected, and appear to have gotten a B finally. (went to algo none of the time, got a C; went to AI half the time, got a B; ...)
36-217 Probability Theory and Random Processes, a.k.a. p_t *ptrp = &p;: the much-loathed "PTRP" of legend! i went through the final exam feeling like i was managing to get all the flashes of intuition the problems needed me to get, surprisingly, and walked out feeling like i'd really earned whatever was on the higher end of the range i was shooting for, which at the time was "D or C". My final grade turns out to be a B. shock and relief.
15-317 Constructive Logic: one cut, two cut, red cut, green cut. blazed through the final exam, an appropriate ending to my performance on the homeworks steadily increasing from "lucky to get half the homework done" to "nearly all the points all the time" through the semester. my final total turned out to be 0.4% above the cutoff for an A. phew again! i generally feel fairly wonderful about how that class went in terms of how i dragged and hiked myself through it and in terms of how much was learned. (william: be proud of yourself! running a class that works that well takes a lot of effort and skill.)
85-390 Human Memory: after consulting with mark, i took a W at the start of the last week of classes. this was one of the better decisions i've made; i think without it my showings in everything else would be much poorer.
15-213 TAing: the semester ended well, i think. i ran my question on the final exam about bailout gotos, which worked by means of being the "reverse this assembly into C" question. it was intended to be an easy question, and so it was, judging by the scores; it was also supposed to teach the students something new, which i think it succeeded at. next semester i am taing 213 again, and going to fix the rest of tshlab so it is all consistent and good at the same time.
15-412 Operating Systems Practicum: if this is a postmortem, then 412 is cutting itself out of the coffin and wielding a shovel. it was even before exam week started that i'd gotten enough feedback from LKML to finish everything up for the last time, but never found the time to actually do it. exam week came and went, and eventually, with three half-days of work, I finished and
submitted it today (for the third time in a month). too late, of course, for the academia monster: eckhardt assigned me an incomplete (like I asked) for final grades, and I have to deal with retying all the loose ends so I can end up with a real grade. Probably going to be an A, as i do like how my project turned out, but until it's over it's still an obligation.
overall, i feel like I got away from that semester very, very luckily
unscathed. through exam week, the fluctuations i had in focus, energy level, and pleasantness to be around were a complete mess; during the semester, it was not as bad, but still barely sufficient for me to keep up with my work, and certainly not clean enough for me to be cheery all the time. my aim for next semester is to at any time be able to walk into the cluster and smile at everybody - among other things, to do this i will need to take many more weekends to do nothing but destress than i did this semester. i will also need to start homeworks earlier (ha ha), appreciate walks, do pushups (you know who you are), go climbing (you know who you are), and cook for myself more.
for now, i am attempting to use winter break to pack up everything, drain the remaining inertia from stumbling blindly along for four months, and reset completely. i expect i will need all of break for this. i am at my auxiliary home, in north carolina, and i spent a day today doing nothing. i had a mexican chocolate gelato after dinner; it had ancho chili in it. it was the best thing.